not find a way to say how I feel. I just want to try to find the beginning, a start in order to understand once and for all ... I think I'm doing a lot of important things with my life, and undoubtedly go the way I want, but sometimes I feel that my life is crumbling , everything is chaos, that nothing is in order, and it is only an illusion , a way to cheat making me believe that all is well, proceed to .
I have everything under control , but is hopelessly out of hand I do not know how to continue hiding so many things, saying and many others, continued How deceiving, believing that nothing has happened?. No way, no reason, no precise or exact there is no why, no how, just everything is acceptable as it is, and start to have problems with that, things begin to wonder , and expect answers, wait and wait and wait for anything because they never get those answers.
all starts to come together, and I can not find a way to remove whatever was originally separated. My life is nothing but a game, a damn game that I do not want to play , and start to wonder and ... If not there?, "If you were not here? , Does anyone know the difference?, Anyone would realize that no longer exists?, It is most likely yes, but really not how I want to ask the question, just trying to fool not to think something that makes me feel worse, but in reality Are you'd realize that no longer exists? , really Am I important to you?. I
order, protocol, a procedure for the first time in my life I really want it, want to start from zero, zero really, I know it sounds absurd, and it is not possible, but somehow as I close every door ajar I left my life ' waiting for the possibility of something that just hurts me, hurts me ', I close everything I have left unfinished for fear of truncated the possibility of a different future, but for the first time, I have the urge to smoke, because I feel that without it I can not keep growing.
hurts in every way imaginable, hurts me to see you, feel you near, know you're there, it hurts me to hear you talk , I stuck the words, and just keep thinking, I do damage, and start to feel silly, hypnotize me, you have a strange effect on me is something stop feeling any . Precisely this is the first door I want to seal, so that the demons that are inside can not ever leave, you no longer want to watch, and hate one by one the times and I saw that day most wanted to be my hero , I hate them because I know you never really had.
and unavoidably, I discovered that these doors that I thought I had closed still open. I close cycles, closing so many things, to continue with my life ... But I find it very difficult, if the past haunts me, that hunter attacks his prey, but I know that at some point I will get the balance I seek, the best way to stop those things that I do not remember in place, and of course leave you tied to the past, not having you in my mind anymore ... curse the hour I met again.
I have everything under control , but is hopelessly out of hand I do not know how to continue hiding so many things, saying and many others, continued How deceiving, believing that nothing has happened?. No way, no reason, no precise or exact there is no why, no how, just everything is acceptable as it is, and start to have problems with that, things begin to wonder , and expect answers, wait and wait and wait for anything because they never get those answers.
all starts to come together, and I can not find a way to remove whatever was originally separated. My life is nothing but a game, a damn game that I do not want to play , and start to wonder and ... If not there?, "If you were not here? , Does anyone know the difference?, Anyone would realize that no longer exists?, It is most likely yes, but really not how I want to ask the question, just trying to fool not to think something that makes me feel worse, but in reality Are you'd realize that no longer exists? , really Am I important to you?. I
order, protocol, a procedure for the first time in my life I really want it, want to start from zero, zero really, I know it sounds absurd, and it is not possible, but somehow as I close every door ajar I left my life ' waiting for the possibility of something that just hurts me, hurts me ', I close everything I have left unfinished for fear of truncated the possibility of a different future, but for the first time, I have the urge to smoke, because I feel that without it I can not keep growing.
hurts in every way imaginable, hurts me to see you, feel you near, know you're there, it hurts me to hear you talk , I stuck the words, and just keep thinking, I do damage, and start to feel silly, hypnotize me, you have a strange effect on me is something stop feeling any . Precisely this is the first door I want to seal, so that the demons that are inside can not ever leave, you no longer want to watch, and hate one by one the times and I saw that day most wanted to be my hero , I hate them because I know you never really had.
and unavoidably, I discovered that these doors that I thought I had closed still open. I close cycles, closing so many things, to continue with my life ... But I find it very difficult, if the past haunts me, that hunter attacks his prey, but I know that at some point I will get the balance I seek, the best way to stop those things that I do not remember in place, and of course leave you tied to the past, not having you in my mind anymore ... curse the hour I met again.
Barquisimeto 24/Feb/08 12:16 p.m. - Vzla
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